Hya.... 
This year I decide to be a Year of Knowledge 
I will learn something about how to make website, like as joomla, dreamweaver, also I want to learn more deep about photoshop and corel draw, and I want to learn my husband's language, POLSKI. Now, I start learn POLSKI 
God, This is very hard to pronounce the language, because they have special word and different pronunciation. And I always almost bite my tongue 
I hope my tongue will savety until I finish my learning in Polski. Amen 
Currently feeling: busy
Finally my husband back to Indonesia. We went to my pregnancy doctor together to check the condition of our baby. And our doctor said that now we can now our baby sex. And she said that our baby is a girl
It's big surprise for us. Especially my husband. He happy very much because almost all of his family are man and now he will have daughter. I can't wait until she born 
Currently listening to: Melly Guslow's song
Currently reading: Jilbab traveler
Currently feeling: cheerful
Just call her "her". She is someone that very closer to my life. But sometime too enter my life. I just want to scream with "her", but I can't fighting anymore. I'm tired... Everybody love "her" very much. But with me, she made me tired now. I'm getting stress 
Just please, leave me alone from a moment. All my life just to make "her" happy, and what now. What she want now. I gave all to "her". I already gave all. God, I don't have power now. Just let me in peace 
Currently reading: The Zahir-Paulo Coelho
Currently feeling: angry
Today I just realize what missing in my life, a pray... We are only human, just complaining what a bad thing that we got all the time. And we forget to see good things that He already gave to us. Do we ever see that? How many times we say "THANKS TO GOD" than say "WHY ME, GOD?" God is always here with us, always. He always know which one is good for us... I'm so sorry that I was very angry to You for everything. I will try my best in my life and I believe Your hands always care on me. THANKS GOD...
Currently watching: Escape from Sanghai
Currently feeling: Blessing
Being pregnant not so easy. Sometime we fighting with ourself because this feeling sound not ourself. And also we have very sensitive feeling. Everything crazy for me now 
. Omg, I hope I can make my mind positive. Think positive....think positive... 
I always try to hypnotize myself. I will not let something broken my mind and my heart. But my God, this mind always thinking crazy, everything become problem. Sometime I'm angry with myself "WHAT THE HELL IS THIS" I must kill this negative mind 
KILL...KILL...KILL... go to the hell
Currently feeling: blah
After 1 month get marry. God gives me big bless. I'm pregnant
So nice. Before I never imagine that I will be a mom someday. Now the feeling so strange. I can feel my baby move inside my stomach. His age now 4 month and next month my doctor said that I can know my baby is boy or girl. Ok, let see in next month 
Currently listening to: colbie Caliat-Falling for you
Currently feeling: happy
So this is my story. I married with my husband from Poland by the
moslem way in Depok. We have Marriage book already. And now we want to
make our marriage legal in his country also. So I went to civil office
where arrange my marriage before. We asked to give us letter about our
marriage in that officefor Polish embassy. The name of that letter is
excerpt from marriage certificate. And the officer asking money for
this and we gave because we don't have any choice, you know Indonesian
rule, everything about money, corrupt 
So after one week they gave us that letter. And we bring that letter to
embassy. And in there, we know that the letter that he gave to us is
the wrong letter. The officer in embassy said that excerpt from
marriage certificate has hologram and must be two, one for wife and the
other one for husband. But in the civil office I just have 1 letter and
not hologram letter. So I went again to there, and told him that this
is the wrong letter. Then he said that for the hologram letter is only
for christian marriage. I'm really confuse, why the civil office make
difference between moslem and christian. Then I know from embassy that
hologram letter is for general, not for moslem marriage or christian
marriage. And what make me sad is the officer don't want to know
everything. He said that the embassy stay in Indonesia, so that they
must follow the rule in Indonesia.
So who really break the rule? In the fact I saw the letter from any
area in Indonesia using hologram letter and I saw also not only couple
who marriage in Christian way have this letter, also in moslem way. So,
where I must complain my problem. In embassy they follow the rule that
using hologram letter, and in the civil office he will not give us that
letter, because he thinked that letter only for Christian marriage.
Really, I feel in big stress now because I don't like if I must go
again ot civil office, the way he serve us really like shit. And how is
Indonesian country will go to the better country if all of the officer
just asking money and don't want to serve the citizenship with heart
and friendship. Oh my God, I'm so shy with them.
Anybody can tell me how the solution of my problem? Or Scan that letter
for me? Because I want to show to the officer that letter.
Currently feeling: sad
I decide to start update my blog again. Everything so busy before for me and now I know my time is coming. I just have new life now. I already have my own family now. And everything change so fast. Even now I still can not believe that I already get marry. Oh my God, really I made very big decision in my life. I was so scare if this will be right decision or not because in the fact in my mind so many things that I want to reach until I forgot the propose of life. I'm happy I wake up and found my way now. I'm happy even life is not so easy but God has His way to show us His power
She is always happy with her life... and now she wanted to have many friends...This cartoon made by my fiance, Piotr
And we decided Zuzia become our first daughter (hehehehehe... what do
you think about this?). Yaa... we can say even she just life in the
virtual in somewhere else... but really she already make us falling in
love and life in our heart. She already alive for us... she has her own
life... she is alive like as a human for us. She is little crazy in
positive off course. Why we say she is little crazy? Because she is
very active with all of her idea in her mind... She is very creative in
her own way... We love her so much... she is our little Zuzia. Where is she? There she is....
So hopeful you love her too... If you wanna know more about her you can check this link http://www.gilazuzia.com
Currently listening to: Tangerine Dream-Do As Infinity
Currently reading: SAP: Computer and Society
Currently feeling: Itchy in my face... :(